Dilemmas of my Darkness 

Constantly at battle with my mind 

It’s a constant war inside 

Worrying about the darkness taking precedence over the light 

It’s kind of ironic 

Because I find so much comfort in the night 

It’s probably because I blend in so perfectly 

Or possibly because the darkness in me is me 

The moon shine provides just enough ease 

Just long enough for me to feel the night’s breeze 

Is it the fear of embracing parts of my soul 

Things I’d rather not show

The parts that aren’t ideally things I’d like to feel

The things I don’t see myself seeing 

My universe finds it so hard to find the balance between my sun and moon 

I become conflicted by some of the thoughts and feelings my mind blooms 

What if they don’t turn out to be pretty flowers

What if all they are are black roses filled with thorns 

Would they still be considered beautiful 

Or would they be seen as something harmful 

So many unanswered questions that float around 

As I watch them float above my smoky crown 

So many things left unsettled in the air 

I managed to let go of some of the things my heart couldn’t bare 

The blood that flows through my prideful veins 

Fills my heart with all these unnecessary strains 

The most beautiful breakthroughs come after the ugliest breakdowns

Right before it feels like in my feelings I’m about to drown

Each one comes when I’m just about to give in 

Give in to the battles I fight within 

Somehow the light always comes shining through 

Just when I thought the darkness was all I knew 


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